Sensitivity, Service, and Some Psychic Stuff

When I meet someone, their soul is all I see.

More specifically, their soul is all I feel.

This used to be a problem. I would sense a random person’s truth, their nature, their essence, whether I wanted to or not. It was palpable, although indescribable; I would only know that I knew them because I would start to feel like them. I’d absorb their truth like a sponge until I started feeling like it was my own.

This was my gift, although it felt like anything but. It felt more like hypersensitivity, poor boundaries, or straight-up, cray-cray, get-outta-my-mind/body/spirit-complex-why-do-I-want-to-die insanity.

This dynamic ran through my childhood and adolescence, through my university studies, my therapeutic process, and my post collegiate maturation, and it is still with me today, albeit in a very different form.

I didn’t understand my sensitivity, though, until I started studying healing and the psychic arts. I learned that I was a feeler. A hugger. A sensor. By nature. It was challenging to deal with this vulnerable part of myself; so much so that it felt like a weakness.

It was only a weakness because I was not looking at it. It was only a weakness so that I would be compelled to look at it.

There’s a damn good Rumi quote: The wound is the place where the light enters you.

Your weakness is there to become your strength. It is the place that requires the most attention because it is the place where there is the most potential for growth. I don’t even really like the word weakness. A weakness is only a weakness when you refuse to look at it. If you use your perceived weakness as a kind of homing signal, a beacon, a lighthouse, guiding your awareness boat to shore, it is no longer a weakness. It’s a lighthouse.

I think the way I would add to the Rumi quote, (Lawd, I can’t believe I just said that) is to say: When you bring the light of awareness to your weakness it becomes your strength. When your strength is activated by sustained attention and adoration it becomes empowered. When your empowered strength is harnessed and refined, it is able to be used in service.

Then you have a choice… how to use your strength? You can use it to make your life better, and that’s a great start. Use your empowered strength to make your life better, of course. But there’s a funny thing that happens when you use your power for yourself over and over. You become very powerful, but you can also become kind of a dick.

The trick is to use it for yourself, then others, then yourself again, then others. It's a natural cycle, to discover your gift, use it for yourself, just don't forget to use it for others. Otherwise you create an imbalance and minimize the potential of your power.

It’s like obsessively building one muscle group. Let’s say it’s your arms. Fine. Focus on your arms and you will eventually have really amazing arms. Who can blame you for wanting to look at them all the time? They’re so amazing! So you check them out in the mirror and you keep building them. And dude, they’re even more amazing. You want to show them to other people because they’re so amazing! Then one day a little old lady falls and you have to help her up. You bend over to help her up. She weighs, like, 90 pounds. As you lift her up, POP! You throw your back out cuz bro, your legs are like toothpicks.

I did this with my clairsentience, my empowered sense of psychic feeling. I worked diligently to bring awareness to my perceived weakness, my sensitivity, until it became my greatest strength. Then I kept working, studying, developing, practicing, and loving my sensitivity until it became a powerful tool. I then knew that I had to do readings and healings for others. Problem was, after a little while, I got kind of braggy and annoying about it. I wanted to do readings even if people didn't necessarily want one. I thought everyone needed a healing. I was flexing my sensitivity in the mirror. I worked and worked, and eventually, total psychic slipped disc. I had to take a year off and recover.

That was really hard for me. I was embarassed that I had burnt out. My strength had become a weakness... or so I thought. My perceived weakness was really just another homing signal, guiding me towards a greater refinement of strength and empowerment.

Once I took the time to re-attend to my supposed weakness, I adored it anew until it became a strength again. The meta-moment was when I realized I was using my sensitivity to attend to my sensitivity. The missing ingredient? I had to share the benefits of my service to self by turning again to service to others. I went back to work.

You really don’t have to be a professional psychic, or a healer. That just happens to shore to which my weakness/strength lighthouse guided me. You can use your gift, your exquisitely calibrated weakness that is there to guide you to your equally unique and magnificent strength, in any way that serves you. Just don’t forget to serve others with it also.

Said another way, use your weaknesses to empower yourself, but know that that power is like an Inspector Gadget style self destructing message. Attend to your weakness until you understand it, and it will become a strength. Adore your strength until it becomes a tool. But know that that tool is ultimately made to explode beyond its initial function and into the world around you as empowered service to others.

That act of moving beyond yourself (with sooooo much love) expands your sphere of potential and actually makes it possible to discover and develop new powers you didn’t even know you couldbegin to have. You might feel like they’re weaknesses at first. But give them some light, some attention, some love, and they have the power to change the world.

And all of a sudden your overdeveloped arms don’t look so weird because you are standing strongly on your thoroughly impressive, eminently grounded legs.

With love, and light.
Mikey D.
EdibleSpirit

Some Interviews

I am proud to know these people who are putting the pieces together in their own ways, lucky that they asked to interview me.

First are the soul-full queens - Stephanie Simbari and Elizabeth Kott, presiding over their new, noteworthy, #1 podcast "That's So Retrograde." They are so dang hilarious and are doing amazing work that is right in line with the EdibleSpirit ethos - showing us how to integrate the most out-there, spiritual, now-age stuff into our everyday lives through interviews with unique and amazing people. Forgive my over-communication and enjoy their whip-smart open-hearted infinite-seeking selves.

Next is a thoughtful, sensitive, gracious, and incisive writer named Robert Kuang. He's done some work with me as a healer but we also run in the same artistic circles in NYC. He interviewed me for his website selfcarewithwriters.com. Again, Mikey with the over-communication, but Robert has gorgeously organized our conversation into two parts. The first deals more with how my origins as a restaurant brat have collided with my life as a writer and healer. The second turns toward a discussion on mental illness and spiritual healing, as well as writers block, empowered truth and alignment with yourself. I think it's pretty badass.

Listen to Steph and Elizabeth interviewing me on Soundcloud HERE.
Subscribe to the That's So Retrograde podcast HERE.
Follow them on instagram and twitter @soretrograde.

Part I of the interview with Robert Kuang HERE
Part II of the interview HERE

Human Tools Be Like…

I am overjoyed to welcome you to ediblespirit.com, and to EatYourSpirit, the EdibleSpirit Blog.

EdibleSpirit is dedicated to making the most far-out, woo-woo, highly-vibrational spiritual, psychic, and soul based material as straightforward and satisfying as a delicious meal. The EatYourSpirit blog is a space to announce upcoming EdibleSpirit events, a forum for the EdibleSpirit community, and most deliciously for me, a place where I get to directly to share my inspirations, meditations, and creations.

I am always journeying–from the deepest recesses of the inner planes, to the most far-flung corners of the infinite cosmos–to bring back useful tools, tips, and ideas that can improve the circumstances of your life, work and relationships, HERE AND NOW. I have been doing this for awhile now, in private sessions with clients, in classes with my students, in my creative work as a writer and chef, and in my everyday life as a friend, lover and family man. This new online space is an ever so slightly more formalized way of bringing you the tastiest tools I've turned up in my multidimensional voyages.

So let's talk about tools. My father taught me that if you have a problem, or a challenge, or something that's really really important to you, you use the best tools available to get the job done. Even if you don't totally understand how to fix the problem, if you have the right tools, and a clear understanding of the problem, you can fix just about anything. We’re human. We use tools to get stuff done all the time. We just think of tools as things you can pick up and use.

But what if you are the best tool ever?

What if you were made, one-of-a-kind, to assist your Self in solving every single problem that comes your way? What if you could pick yourself up, and with a little reflection and some gentle guidance, use yourself, your consciousness, and the empowered validity of your experience, to crack the code that teaches you to hack your soul? What if you were capable of journeying through time and space, life and love, joy and loss with grace, ease, and so much peace?

Duh. You are. In fact, it's what you're made to do.

If your life were the ultimate problem, you’d be the ultimate tool for solving it.

Let's be clear: you and your life are never broken, nothing about you needs to be fixed. But life goes on. Things change, new challenges arise, and we rise to meet those challenges. In this process, growth occurs. Your human tool (hehe) is upgraded, refined, remodeled, re-released. You grow as the challenges grow. This is evolution. And evolution goes on no matter what you do.

Conscious evolution, however, is entirely optional. It's a choice to refine your human tool, (in response to some challenge, or as a preparatory measure) along the most loving and authentic lines. When you choose to grow–when you choose to change, when you choose to transcend a circumstance, or to viscerally engage a circumstance from the clearest, brightest most loving perspective possible–you are choosing to evolve, consciously. This activation refashions the human being into a tool that is optimized for every situation. I call this ongoing process of conscious evolution Soul-Maintenance.

Here in New York, and all over the world, we put all sorts of time and money and energy into maintaining our bodies and minds and desires, but when it comes to our SOUL – our true self, our whole self, our essence, our being, our all-seeing, all-knowing, perfectly whole and infinite self - many of us sweep it under the rug in one way or another. Even talking about it seems like a waste of time, or it's indulgent, or it’s weird, or scary, or we just sort of figure that it will be taken care of…  Most often, we don't even know where to start.

You can start here. Take a bite out of your soul here. EatYourSpirit here. Choose to grow, choose to evolve, now.

Authority over your soul/spirit/self belongs to you and only you. Your choice is everything. Your truth is what matters most. Everything I do, say, and teach at ediblespirit.com is aligned with this priority. I am not interested in getting you to believe in anything. I am not trying to prove anything. I am offering, in service, the information and tools I have found most useful in harnessing the power of the spiritual plane to transform your life, work and relationships.

If the human being is an exquisite tool, Edible Spirit is here to help you write your own user’s manual.

With big buckets of love,

Michael Domitrovich